This "blog" kind of functions as my personal journal, since I haven't really written in my own journal in months. I think it's still in my car. Lately, however, since time is at a premium, and I can type faster than I can write, I've been thinking that I should start a typed journal, so I would have an outlet for my thoughts. So, here it is. Personal journal + blog, I guess, for whoever decides they want to read it.
Sometimes I'm struck with certain realities- even if they have existed for a while. Like, sometimes I'll look at Madeline, who is now 5 months old, and think, oh holy god, I have a daughter. Woah.
Or right now, I'm sitting in the law library at school, and I looked around at the stacks of books surrounding me and thought, woah. I'm in law school. I've dreamt about this for years now, and always kind of looked upon "law students" with a certain kind of awe and admiration. And here I AM. Woah.
Sometimes these thoughts are kind of overwhelming. Sometimes they're reassuring. I used to think that I'd never want children, or if I did, I would not be able to, for whatever reason. So sometimes I have to remind myself that not only did I become pregnant, but I carried a child to term, delivered her, and she's right there. And I have to feed her, and play with her, and sing to her.... it can be overwhelming, but mostly, it's reassuring. I did it. And she's here. And it's amazing.
Law school is the same way. I took the LSAT. I wrote the personal statements. I filled out all of the applications. I signed my offer/award letter. I registered for classes. And now I'm here. And I have a bunch of work to do.
Woah. What have I gotten myself into?
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